Friday, May 23, 2003

Long Island, NY...I don't understand how I can lose 40pounds, wear a size zero, and yet my grandmother still makes comments like "Are you sure you want a second helping?" and "How about having a DIET coke instead of a reugular one?" AURGHHHHH!!!! I just don't get it. That and my grandfather and I were talking about Tiffany's wedding and I said something about how when I get married I don't want all this fuss Tiffany is going thru" and my grandpa says to me that I am way too young to get married. Even though Tiffany is less than a year older than me and she has been engaged for three years. I don't understand. Well, i guess I do, but it still isnt right. Just cuz I am the baby of the family does that mean I will forever be treated like I am 12? Oh well. And speaking of family problems, my dad's birthday is tommorrow, my grandmother actually had the nerve to ask me if I was going to call him. Let's think about that, I haven't recieved a "Happy Birthday" from my dad in over ten years. I haven't been on speaking terms with him in over five, now, why would I call him? Oh well, as is obvious by my rambling, I am looking foward to my trip to be over, I can only deal with family for so long. And I still have to host a wedding shower for Tiffany on Sunday!! How will I ever survive??? The same way everyone survives family functions I guess...lots and lots of alchohal.

Thursday, May 22, 2003

Long Island, NY...Oh, I forgot to mention, Jenn, Amy and I also saw the Matrix Reloaded. It was not as good as the first, but still enjoyable. The effects were awesome. But I did walk out of it feeling like I had just spent eight dollars to watch a video game. Sequels are never as good as the original, but Lawrence Fishburne is still the man. And it was great to see the narrator (wish I knew the actor's name, but I don't) from Oz (the one in the wheelchair) in the film. Oz was one of the best shows on TV and it was sad to see it go.
Long Island...So, I got out of Florida for a while. Jenn and Amy came to NY with me. We went into the city for a couple of days. Saw Baz Lurmann's "La Boheme" on Broadway. It was awesome. I had seen Boheme before, but not Baz's version of it. You can totally see his influence in the similarities between this production and the "Romeo and Juliet" and "Moulan Rouge" movies he did. Opera is an acquired taste, tho. You either love it or you hate it. But for people who appreciate opera (and don't mind reading supertitles if they dont understand italian) I highly reccomend it. It is also fleet week, so part of our time had to be spent checking out the navy boys in Battery Park. Shopping was had. Jenn scored a great Louis Vitton Wallet for Stefan (in fact, the wallet looks so good I think it may be stolen). I bought a knock off Kate Spade. Eric came over from Jersey and we went to some bar for drinks. I saw Todd Eskin in Times Square. This weekend, before I leave NY I am throwing a wedding shower for Tiffany (it is kind of an obligation since I am Maid of Honor). Anyway, I Got to go. Places to go, people to see. Just Giv'er.

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

Tampa, Florida...So, I am typing this on Jenn's computer. I am staying with her for a few days before I go to New York. Last night we went to The Castle. I hadn't been there in years. Good music, not much eye candy though. Jenn got drunk. No suprise. But she did start calling people on my cell phone and singing to them, which was kind of funny. She seranaded Amy at like 2 in the morning. Saw some old friends from school. Which was wierd. Makes me glad I don't live in Tampa, I couldn't handle the pressure. I don't think I have the energy to live up to my reputation anymore. I am getting too old to be the life of the party. I pass the torch on to anyone who wants it. Oh well. Went to dinner with Matt tonight. It was refreshing. Our relationship has been so tense these past couple years. Breaking up, Getting back together, Breaking up again. But for the first time in amolst five years, I didnt feel anything for him. I care about him, and we had a nice time hanging out, but I now know that things are really over between us (I just hope he knows that too, I have broken his heart more times than I can count). I don't know whether it's becuase I went away for so long, or because of Rod, or maybe I have just matured. I don't know. Oh well. Anyway, I am gonna go. It is time to get my drink on.

Sunday, May 11, 2003

Lakeland, Florida...It;s been a busy weekend. Friday, Mom and I went see Jenn perform at White Wolf Cafe. Jenn really has come along way as a singer/songwriter. To check out her songs, go to Saturday, we went to my grandparents house. And then today we visited my Great-Grandmother at her nursing home. Which meant I had to sit through an hour of Gospel music. And not good black music, but bad white Gospel music. I am amazed I could stay awake. But at least my grandmother didnt hassle me about my lack of a driver's liscense. And since I am down to a size 0, she finally cant get on me about my weight. She did however, ask about Rod. I try to keep my family as uninformed as possible (I don't think they need to know about my love life, we live by a don'y ask-don't tell policy). But Nana did notice that Rod and I are together in a couple of pics so she asked, but I certainly didn't tell. Anyway, tomorrow I go to Tampa. I am driving over with Natalie (my roommate in college). We get along alot better now that we don't live together. At least with me being away, she doesnt have to worry about me stealing her guys (I still feel bad about the whole Mike Boston situation). Oh well. And I get to see Matt, which is good and bad. I mean, we are friends. But it is just wierd to be friends with someone who at one point in time you were going to marry. Oh well. Anyway, I gotta pack, I mean Tampa, New York, and then if I am lucky I am going to model in Texas. Just Giver.

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

Lake Mary, Florida...Well, the State of Florida sucks. I have been denied unemployment. So, now I have to find a job. Oh Well. At least I don't have to work yet. I go to Tampa next week, then I will be in New York. So I don't need anything until I get back. And I have my last paycheck till then, and my bonus should come in soon (thank god). Anyway, last night was a strange night. Rod called me from Canada. For those of you who don't know, Rod and I were dating on tour; but I didn't really plan on talking to him once tour ended. Nice to hear from him tho. Then last night Jill and I went to a party at Jenn Lazar's house. We were only gonna stop by, but once the tequila shots started, I knew we were stuck there (at least till Jill sobered up enough to drive). Yeah, it was good to see all the people I haven't seen in years, but I kind of felt like I was back in highschool seeing all the old faces. Plus, Lazar and I used to date, so that is always a little akward (especially when you walk in on her and her new girlfriend making out). Tomorrow I go to the chiropractor, find out how much my back is fucked up. Lazar got a breast reduction a couple months ago, said it was the best thing she has ever done, maybe I should think about it. But then, every guy I know would have a heart attack if they saw me without "Laquisha & Tamponica" (That is what my friend Marcy named my DDs.